Bittersweet.

Everything is so uncertain to me now.
i need to take Big Steps instead of little small ones.
i need to start taking action with my body and mind.
i need to start thinking more than i think less.
i need change.
i feel like im running aways from all my problems.
thinking that it'll be alright, i hate it.
i want to stop. and have a go start again.
i need to stop hiding my thoughts and say it straight out.
i come to realize im just afraid what people will say.
it's not needs and wants anymore
its will.
i will change and stop being a weakling and become strong.
my thoughts to people.

jay, im sorry.
hi, i like you.
erin, your AKWARD.
Josh, your cool
Charlie, your funny!.
Nick, your LAME!.
Sam, your cute!
hey, your annoying.
Danny, your crazy!
jane, your NOT fat.
sophia, your nice.
moses, your GANGPEH.
Steven, i want to be like you!
you, your ugly.
andrew, your dota king!
jake, your michusuh.
Darky, your dark!
Big Joe, your chill.
Krystal, your clear.
God, Please Forgive Me.

i probably have more thoughts but this is as far as i go.
i feel like im getting punished for all my sins by God.
but i also feel he's leading me to a better place and getting closer.
you know
i want to be forgiven.
i want to get closer with bestfriends even more.
i want to fall in love again.
i want to be free
i want a RX8 with erin.
i want a tattoo that'll serve purpose for what i have done.
i want ear piercings.
i want reach the top of mount everest with friends.
i want to dance better
i want fix all the problems.
i want someone to praise me for what i have done.
i want get away from everything for a day.
i want to be the very best!(:

you know after today im going to change my bad traits
and live a brand new today. and try to make those wants into will's(=

i feel like im the middle one.x_x
Jay's the first one
Charlie's the Second one.
Danny's third
Sam's fourth
Moses is Fifth
Josh is 6th.
and the last 2 are nick and erin.