6 bbq in a row?!

my great god -___-x
well today i had my 5th bbq party...
and tomorrow another one!
im getting pretty sick of bbq...
and happy birthday nick tomorrow(x
we prepared you a suprise tahaha.
UH. so yeahh
mann so many messed up stuff going on these days-____-x
and being involved and stuff just SUCKS.

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mmmmm yeap. hahaha

you know even though i have never smoked before.
out of curiousity, i want to try it! cause everyone says it feels good...-___-x
im pretty sure everyones wants to try it... but they just don't like me!(=
but i have too keep my promise with everyone else and GOD. so too bad guys..
but im just showing how stressed i am right now...
but if you really think of it smoking isn't a sin.
it's only a sin because your breaking the law of smoking at a younger age then said.
so when you hit 18 means smoking isn't a sin.

but even though the stress this week has been pretty chill.
took this from krystalkimmm(=
friends=fun hanging out=orgasm HAHA so Friends hanging out=fun orgasm HAHAH(x
thats so true in a really wierd way.

bbq was fun darkys party was fun. just everything beens going good for me seriously id say this has been my best summer but there more(x
but it has also been so depressing and messed up.
friends fighting... so wtf yeaah.
sighhh but you know its like without darkness there is no light! that was lame but hey! i tried.
and my feelings? ahhhh whatever. im aready happy without it hahaha.
and retreat?
maybe just like what julie said. something extraordinary may happen.
i feel like i should go.
sorry guys but i think you guys should come too.
but its not for me to have fun.
i've been doing so many sins.
been cussing alot lately
been not listening to my parents
been fighting alot well not even one but with my family
been breaking rules(;
i need to repent and i think retreat will help my life to a better cause.
and plus its for God. i want to know him more.
and i DO believe something extraordinary will happen
so come'on peeps!

you know just one last thing
Good bye.

haha alrighty peeeeeeeeace.